Okay. Deep breath. This morning I woke up with an attitude. Actually, i feel like I have had a mood now for about a week. I think I came home from the village a bit stressed. i loved it there, i loved the pace or lack of pace and really have not slid into life here yet. I think what is really strange for me is that I am discovering that I really do love it here and I do not miss the States as much as you would think. I miss people I love, but no, i really feel content here. Or will when i start to actually work.
Last night before i went to bed, i read an email that upset me. And it really was my own interpretation, and not wanting to be told that we will work out things. When I woke this morning, i felt sad and a little betrayed. I started feeling like I was just in a tight spot. funny, the last time i felt exactly this way, i was telling everyone the God will work "this" out for His Glory and that I trusted Him. This time, i allowed my impatience and attitude to get in my own way. Not fair-not fair to the people around me, to the person who emailed me, myself anf really not fair to The Lord. After all, I am here. And later today, we received an email confirming that people and God are working to make something happen that i tried to give up on today. So, yes, I am humbled AGAIN. Thank you Jesus for setting me straight. It is You I need truly.
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