I have noticed for a long time that my "romantic" life seems to be a source of great curiousity. Sometimes I get subtle questions, somethimes the questions are so direct! I am surprised by this in many ways.
When I became a Christian, I realized how important time spent with the Lord is-whether it is prayer or Scripture reading. I have found that my judgment in picking dates has been, well, not so hot. And, the longer I live without a partner, the more settled in my own ways I seem to be.
As I started to answer the call to the mission field, I beleived that I must put my decisions into God's Hands as I cannot any longer rely on myself. Nor should I. God has been so good to me, so merciful, and I am grateful.
I knew when I was in the States that if someone came into my life-he would need to have a big neon sign form God that said"Pick me!"But he would also have to have an interest in missions. We are to seek Him first in all things, whether you are a mission worker or not. I am certain I am supposed to be here, now.
Many locals ask me about my life and I am honest about it. Yes, perhaps someday I would like to get married again. However it is up to the Lord, in whose capable loving hands I place my life, to decide when that will be.
Happily, I have not met anyone who could or would stand in my way of doing this ministry. I am a romantic at heart, but have not met anyone in the last two years I felt was even a possibility.
If it happens, it must be by God's Will not mine.
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